Honesty and Perspective

I found out my ex-step dad died today. I knew him once to be a happy and fun man who was very good to me and always made sure I was taken care of. Over time he changed and not for the better, he and my mom split up and I lost touch with him. I heard he became a very angry and bitter person. A lot of bad stuff happened before that break. But I found something…… my heart didn’t remember the man that tried to run me off the road with his car or the man who lost all sense of love and reason. My heart remembered the man who used to take care of me and make me laugh. So I cried today, I cried a lot. I cried for the man he could have been, I cried that he died alone and I cried that he chose to leave the world in such a tragic way. See just because someone becomes a person you can no longer associate with doesn’t mean you love them less, it just means you have to love yourself more. So I cried, I cried because I missed the old man and I cried because now I always will.